Chapter 3

The weekend arrived faster than I wanted.

My mother had called three times to confirm the menu, though she kept saying they would bring everything themselves. “Just set the table, Aria. Don’t lift a finger.”

I didn’t lift a finger. I sat by the window and watched the street until their car pulled up.

My father parked. My mother got out first, carrying two bags of groceries. Then the back door opened.

Celeste stepped out in a cream wool coat, her hair fresh from a salon, a gift box in her gloved hands.

I opened the door before they rang the bell.

“Aria.” My mother kissed my cheek. “You look pale. Are you sleeping?”

“Fine,” I said.

My father grunted from behind her. He had looked at me for the last twenty years—with the evaluative expression of a man calculating whether his daughter was going to be a problem today or not.

"Dad."

"Aria."

He kissed my cheek the way he always did. Once. Done.

Celeste walked past him and stopped in front of me. She smiled—wide, practiced, the same smile she had worn since we were teenagers.

“Sister.” She opened her arms. “It’s so good to see you.”

I stepped sideways, smoothly, and took the gift bag out of her hand instead. "You shouldn't have."

The smile flickered. She recovered before either of our parents noticed.

"It's just a little something. From LA."

I set the bag on the console table without looking at it.

“Let’s eat.”

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Dinner was the production it always was in my mother's hands—four courses, three wineglasses per place setting, a centerpiece she'd brought from her own dining room because she didn't trust mine.

Julian sat at the head of the table. Celeste sat at his right hand. I sat at the other end, which is to say across from my husband, which is to say where I could watch both of them at the same time without turning my head.

They were good. I'll give them that. They had been doing this for so long that the choreography of it had become invisible—the way Julian poured Celeste's wine without being asked, the way she laughed half a second before his joke landed.

Now I had only just learned what I was looking at.

We were halfway through the main course when Celeste reached across the table for the bread basket, and the cuff of her cream silk jacket slipped back from her wrist.

The bracelet caught the light.

I knew that bracelet.

It was an emerald cuff—Cartier, vintage Trinity collection, the deep cabochon stones set in eighteen-karat gold so soft you could mark it with a thumbnail. I had seen it two years ago, in a glass case at a Sotheby's preview in New York, while Julian stood beside me with one hand at the small of my back and asked me three times if I wanted it.

I had said no. I had said it was too much. I had said it was the kind of piece a woman wears once a decade to a gala, and that it would sit in a safe the other three thousand six hundred and forty-nine days of the year.

He had told me later, on the drive home, that someone else had bought it before he could go back.

Now it was on my sister's wrist.

I lifted my wineglass and drank, slowly, and did not let a single muscle in my face move.

Across the table, Julian was lifting his soup spoon to his mouth.

Celeste noticed me staring. She turned her wrist a little, idly.

"Do you like it, Aria?" Her voice was warm, conversational. "Julian gave it to me as a welcome-home present. He said the color suited me."

Julian choked on his soup.

His face went a deep, expensive red. My mother fluttered her hands and said *oh dear oh dear* and reached for the water pitcher.

Celeste lowered her eyes demurely to her plate.

I didn’t look at her. I looked at Julian.

But he did not look at me.

He did not look at her.

Celeste smiled again. “Some things just look better on the right person, don’t you think? Like this bracelet—it’s clearer on my skin than it ever was in the collection.”

She was looking at Julian when she said it.

The look was familiar. I had seen it before—on other women, at other dinners, in the way they glanced at men who weren't theirs.

But this was my sister.

And this was my husband.

I picked up my wine glass. “Excuse me. I have something to say.”

......

I set my fork down.

"Mom. Dad."

The table quieted. My mother turned to me with the small, anxious smile she wore whenever she suspected I was about to be difficult.

"Yes, baby?"

"I had a paternity test done on Caleb."

The silence that fell over the dining room was the kind that happens in the half-second between when a glass slips out of your hand and when it hits the floor.

Celeste's fork paused above her plate.

Julian's wineglass paused at his lips.

My mother's mouth opened.

"He isn't mine."

I said it gently, almost conversationally.

"He never has been. The probability is zero."

For one long moment, no one moved.

Then my father slammed his palm flat against the table.

The wineglasses jumped.

"Aria."

"Yes, Dad."

"Have you lost your mind?"

I lifted my eyes to his.

He was furious. Not surprised. Not stricken. Not horrified on my behalf, the way a father is supposed to be horrified when his daughter tells him her child has been stolen.

Furious. The way a man is furious when his daughter has embarrassed him at the dinner table.

"You sit here in your own dining room," he said, low and shaking, "in front of your husband, in front of your mother, in front of your sister, and you make an accusation like that—based on what? A *blood type?*"

"Based on a lab report from—"

"You need to see a doctor, Aria. A real one. Tonight."

My mother's hand fluttered to her chest. "Please—You're not well. You have been sick for months. Julian has been telling me for months."

I looked at my husband.

Julian was very, very carefully not looking at me.

He was looking at the centerpiece my mother had brought from her own dining room.

I turned to my mother.

She was crying, prettily, into her napkin. She had always cried prettily. It was one of her gifts.

"Mom," I said.

She didn't look up.

"*Mom.*"

She lifted her face. Her mascara was still perfect. Of course it was.

"Look at me. Look at my face. And tell me you didn't already know."

She opened her mouth.

She closed it.

She looked at my father.

That was the answer.

I stood up from the table.

I walked to the foyer. I took my coat off the hook. I did not look back at any of them.

At the door, I paused.

"Tomorrow," I said, without turning, "I'm going to the old house. To tidy up some old things. Anyone want to come with me?"

Behind me, no one spoke.

"But I guess none of you probably wouldn't."

The lock clicked shut behind me.

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I didn't go back to the apartment that night.

I checked into a hotel two blocks from the old house, ordered a glass of wine I didn't drink, and lay on top of the covers in my coat with the lights off, listening to the city forty floors below me hum the way only Ashford could hum at midnight—port, money, and quiet violence, all running on the same current.

My phone buzzed twice on the nightstand.

*Aria. Please. Pick up.* — Julian.

*Aria. I never meant to upset you.* — Mom.

I read both. I deleted both. I turned the phone facedown.

I waited until 5:47 a.m.

Then I got up, washed my face in cold water, put my hair back, and drove out to the old Sinclair house.